Mmuh.

[reymonkey]

I feel... busy, like all my time goes away and I don't know how, because I honestly don't *do* much. I never seem to get anything done. People ask me why I haven't done this or that, and the best answer I can give is I've been busy with other things, and then they ask me what, and I don't have an answer. Not sure what I'm doing wrong, here. Whatever it is I'm doing, it doesn't seem to get anything done.

A while back, one morning, we were about to go somewhere and I glanced in the mirror to make sure I looked reasonably okay, which is about all I ever strive for, and I noted aloud that I looked tired, but otherwise okay. Ginny was standing near me and she said, 'but you usually do...' and she's right... and I can't seem to forget that. It just won't leave my head. If I mention I feel tired or sick, whoever is around me says that I'm always tired or sick, or both. I don't wanna be a fucking hypochondriac. I feel sick right now, and I know it's because I haven't been eating right lately, but I *was*. I had quit coffee, cut way back on soda, trying to eat 3 healthy meals a day with lots of vegetables and some protein and get enough excercise and I feel like fucking crap half the time.
And I can't see a doctor because I've got no health insurance and between the tickets to Bellingham and the usual living expenses I'm pretty broke right now.
I'm just ranting today... pay no attention to the monkey.

I need to get the car thing straight, and then I can get a decent job, maybe apply at Kinko's after vacation.
And kill the neighbors. Need to kill the neighbors and their damn stereo that only plays three different songs, all of them very loud, and all of them with very annoying, repetitive beats. I especially hate that one that sounds like a bad polka.

Going now... need to eat something today.

Comments

Gasp!

[madcowchef.livejournal.com]

I see the problem clean, living kills. Exercise is OK but you must start eating sugar cereal and pop-tarts and drinking coffee and exspresso like your a fish trying to wet its gills. When you hit fifty consider cigars. All this good health stuff will leave you frail and weak. For your immune system consider the following work outs: even if the meat has a rainbow slick on top eat it, if food gets left out over night eat it, and if there is a few meal worm in the corn meal sift it then eat it. In no time your immune system will be primed into ninja like deadliness germs will know you mean freakin' business. Curse, mutter, or swear when you can also. This will put your mind in a non nonsense gettin' things done kinda mood. These refined techniques made it possible for me to finish off the inside of an apartment including redoing a wood floor while working fifty hours plus a week.

[justdbear.livejournal.com]

It may sound stupid to say, Rey, but when you do get a better job, I bet you will feel better. At my last job (which I HATED) I was so stressed all the time about what would come at me next (no consistancy there at all) that I was sick a lot, and I felt like a hypochondriac too, I was always having allergy attacks, athsma attacks, Migraines (I serious do get Migraines that put me out for at least a day), and I missed a lot of work. Since I have been at this job (that I like most of the time save for the clients) I haven't missed a day, and I have only had a few headaches. I think sometimes when you feel like you lack direction or things aren't going so well as far as the way you want them to, it can get very tough to stay healthy because your body doesn't like it either. I think eating right is a very good start, Robyn doesn't eat well and she gets sick and depressed when she doesn't but when she starts eating, chicken and salads and stuff (she won't eat much more than that as she is a total healthnut and gymrat) she feels a lot better...she fights an eating disorder though so it's hard for her to eat well.

WHOA off the subject there. Anyways, I really do think if you get a job where you are appreciated and treated decently that you would feel better all around...plus being in a healthy working environment can do wonders. And for the record, I look tired a lot too, you can't tell in my smile, but you can tell in my eyes and the bags I am developing, but that's because I am nearing the ancient stage of my life heehee.

*HUGS* I hope you feel better today. :)

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Don't tell me you're ancient, you're only a year older than me. Bet I've got more grey hairs than you.
Mebbe it's the job... mebbe I'm just angsty and I need a kick n the ass. I don't miss work days unless I'm puking my guts out, because we're permanantly understaffed, so I go to work sick and despereately hope to pass it on to the boss. Then *he* might stay hom, but that's okay because his employers are happier that way.
I've never had an eating disorder, unless you count college. I forget to eat, I get busy and shit, I don't *think* that counts as an eating disorder. At least I don't live on coffee like I used to. I've finally given up on my caffiene cutback though, because it didn't seem to do me any good.
I like Gabe's answer, but cigars are nasty. They taste like wet paper bags. I took a puff off one Mike had once. Can I take up candy cigars instead? Mmmm... sugar rush.

I'm having more time wasting right now, because I have other things I'd like to be doing, but I'm supposed to wait for this chick I do graphics work for to call so we can run up to Kinko's and run off more postcards. Hurry up and wait. It's not her fault, it's just a bad mesh of schedules, but it's still frustrating.

Re: Gasp!

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

I'm good at swearing, and it's all Alex's fault, but cigars are nasty. What can I take up instead? Why does that feel like a question to an advice columnist?

Dear Madcowchef;
I like to swear and drink and sodomize, but cigars and cigarrettes are nasty. What other vices can I take up that will not taste nasty yet uphold my image as a complete and utter bastard/bitch?
~Richmond Pirate Devotee of Cthulu

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

>:) I'm posting under this jerk's account. Actually you are 6 months younger than me. I don't have any grey hairs yet...but I dye my hair so who knows what color it really is (actually I do know and it reflects silver does that count? heehee).

I think it's work. Cigars are gross gross. Candy cigars are hard to find but well worth the search. I DARE you to go to a cigar bar with a box of candy cigars ROFLOL! That would make your day better.

*HUGS* I feel for you Rey, I really do. Dead end jobs SUCK.

Sugar highs won't help though because they are not steady and they wear off quickly and can mess your moods up more. If I can help let me know, as it is I will cheer you on!!! HORRAY FOR REY! ^_^

Course they do.

[madcowchef.livejournal.com]

You know those catnip infused bubbles you can get for your cat? Try those in your bubble pipe. As best you'll look like a cross between a mad professor and one of those insane cat ladies.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

What's a cigar bar?
I have a whole streak developing of grey hair, and I'm really worrying what my mother is going to say when she sees it. It wasn't there the last time she saw me.

*Tickles Butterworm because he's not that scary.*

Re: Gasp!

[bardha.livejournal.com]

Would you like to sodomize more often?

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

He is TOO scary! *pouts* LOL.

Cigar Bar? You don't have those there? They have them here. Men and women (mainly business people) go to the bar for mixed drinks and cigars...hence cigar bar. They have a lot of meetings there and sell different types of cigars and such...It's like a bar and grill but it's a Bar and cigar instead. LOL!

Re: Gasp!

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

OH SHIT! Now I wish I did not come on here to reply to Rey's comment to my comment!

AVERT YE EYES ARGH.

Take it to phone conversations ladies, PLEASE!

Re: Damn cat. Fucking Cat. Damn, Fucking cat...

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Oh man, we've got a bunch of those, Ginny keeps buying 'em and the cats don't like them.
Whooo! All I need is a bubble pipe. Thank you Answer Cow!

Now why does the cat who can eat flies and carpet all day long only throw up when she eats things that are actually food?
::Runs off to catch the cat making 'Huuuuoorgchk!' noises.::

Re: Gasp!

[bardha.livejournal.com]

Hey, at least I logged out of the courtneycrumrin account to make that reply. ;-)

Oral sex counts as sodomy, too, y'know.

Re: Sexy girl...

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Whooo! Would I?
Wait, did we do that last night...?

;-D
Christine's on her way over now, she got caught up in stuff, but I should still be back before you get home.

Re: Goblin!

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Well it is my journal.
And you know me, I'm just all kinds of obscene.

;-> Nice icon, btw. I still need to fix the res on those...

Re: Sexy girl...

[bardha.livejournal.com]

I sure hope you will be, because I don't have my keys. ;-)

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Oh, that must be for ritzy, bourgeouis peoples. I'm not one of those. Although when we went to Shenandoah, Ginny's parents had martinis and red wine in the winnebago, so they might count.
What a bunch of freaks.

Re: Sexy girl...

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

m,k,.kjb

Spider says Hi. With her ass. Now I forget what the hell I was gona say and she's clawing the hell out of my knee. Nothing on the carpet though, she was just sitting in the window making 'I'm gonna leave you a nasty present' noises.

Ummmm... yeh.

Re: Gasp!

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

I know. I am just not wanting to read about it cause I AIN'T GETTIN NONE.

Very happy you logged thyself out of Crumrin's journal, that would have KILLED me heehee.

Re: Goblin!

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

Hey thanks, I think this is a very sexy icon indeed. Someone I know made it hmmm. LOL Make him look more evil with red blinking eyes or something next time ROFLOL! }:>

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

Freaks. Indeed. Cigar bars are not my thing cause I cannot breathe in them.

Re: Gasp!

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure I want to hear about Butterworm's lovelife, or lack thereof. Particularly with that face on.
Tapirs+Sex=Bad thoughts

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Martinis and Winnebagoes(sp?) are not my thing.

[butterworm.livejournal.com]

As in motor homes? My family has one, It's a slideout HUGE 36' long one and looks like a hotel room inside. Those types aren't bad...Martinis are gross in any environment.

Re: Gasp!

[bardha.livejournal.com]

But they have really long tongues!

Re: Sexy girl...

[bardha.livejournal.com]

That's funny. Spider usually says Hi with her claws.