Venting and arts

[reymonkey]

Ooookay. So I did some updating on DA, mostly of older stuff but I'm posting because I want people to see this and give feedback please? I'm out of practice with realistic stuff.
I did a lot of updating with older stuff from Arrka'ar because it appealed to me, and then Bridgie found this piece of fanart on there by somebody we don't know of her major Arraka'aran character... maybe it's a sign.

I'm feeling frustrated with online RP. Partly I'm just paranoid and hypersensitive about certain things. Maybe I'm mispercieving things. I feel like I can't seem to fit in anywhere and it gets amplified when I see the people I live with being popular and fitting in everywhere. I was hesitant and wary but finally joined an RP community everyone else in the house was a part of. Then Bridgie lost interest in it, Morri finished out his plot and stopped playing, and then two of the coolest players there announced their departure for good. I know none of this has anything to do with me but it still feels like I've walked into a room just as everybody else walks out. Or everybody I feel comfortable and interested in talking to at least. I'm not dropping out or anything, I'm just venting here because I'm oversensistive. I also stupidly started the Dirkitty thing just when Ramon and Hips' players got busy, so I've been in limbo there at the same time.
Maybe LJ RP just isn't where I belong or something. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not thinking straight because I've been having some bad insomnia lately.
Or maybe I need to go back to focusing on my own projects like Arraka'ar and say screw it to online RP. There's not much point in it when I can't find anybody that will actually play with me.

But in other news, Verizon is screwing us over. Obviously I'm on right now, but it's taken me three days to update DA because of a crappy connection. People kept messing around with the phone box out back last week and now our dial tone keeps going in and out and when we do have one the line is staticcy. This means the phone is almost unusable. This also means our connection is slow, takes forever to connect, and then disconnects at random. The weather is fine, we don't owe them money, WTF. We're paying them money for sporadic service. I'm pissed. The insomnia is not helping. I've had the worst insomnia I've had in years this week, getting only a couple hours each night. Bleargh.

I'm gonna end this now because I hate to look back and see myself whinging.

Comments

[dragonwhishes.livejournal.com]

*HUG*

You can always play with me. Or rant at me. I'm here.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Freaks gotta stick together, right? ;) Thanks. I am interested in the game you brought up, and I think I've decided on who I'm playing. Just gotta get our home connection up and running again.

[dragonwhishes.livejournal.com]

YAY! We've got a lot of people there. The Mel that's in that world is going to help with a raid on a camp to get food and supplies and stuff.

Mel can always run across Ratty again, if you want.

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

Hello!

I'm really sorry about your phone connection, and your RP troubles. For what it's worth, I think you're a great RPer, and I'd RP with you any time. :) Especially Rat! I'm always a little shy when it comes to putting up Dark City posts, so just nudge me when you want me to and I will.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Grrrrrrr Verizon sucks. They're also kind of a monopoly around here. I think Cavtel is our only other option.

Thanks! Buuuut... you haven't played with me much. I admit I mostly stick to lighter stuff and comic relief on LJ RP. I'd love to have Ratty meet Sarah. There was some kind of idea going around about him turning up sick at the clinic where she's working? At this rate I might not get the chance to play that until after X-mas though. Poor Ratty, spending Christmas alone on the streets...

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

My cellular is Verizon, and I can't complain too much about them, but they aren't a monopoly here. Companies get lazy when they can -- our cable modem is Comcast, and they are seriously evil.

I may not have played with you much, but I have read the posts you're in, and I am impressed. :)

I figured the easiest way for Sarah to meet Rat is if he came by the clinic, since I can't imagine them running into one another otherwise. Unless John mentions him to her and Schreber, then she might actively look for him. He doesn't have to be ill, or anything... the clinic does preventative stuff, too, like flu shots.

Would you like me to put up a post after the holidays? I'm going to not be around much myself -- going home from 21st to the 30th.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Oh, Cellular Verizon is great, and also a completely different department. I used to work for RadioShack for about two and a half years and we sold them. The credit checks are hellish, which is why I can't get one, but that means their service caters to people who expect they damn well better get what they pay for. I have Sprint for my cell. Easy credit checks, more expensive phones up front, because they have a higher rate of customers who end up not paying their bills.
Thanks. Rat's a more serious character than Dirk, definitely. You can see my old stuff on my dead OC journals...heh.
I think she was going to have John tell them about Rat just because whoa-guy who knows something's up. If I have Rat be sick then he can get a pity party! ;)
Sure, that works for me. I'm not into the commercialistic drive of the Christmas rush anymore than I have to be, but my workplace is closing to move next week so I'm busy a lot...
Speaking of which, I should get back to work.

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

I had no idea that there was that difference between verizon and sprint. I switched to Verizon after a year with AT&T (before they merged with cingular). They were awful. I couldn't get any reception in my house, and when my phone broke, they sent me a refurbished phone (which had a broken 4 button). Good times!

Sarah will try to help out Rat if he is sick, doubly so if she knows already that he has been noticing changes in the city.

This Christmas I'll be with my parents instead of my boyfriend's family, which means no Christmas anything (we're Jewish) and I'm really looking forward to it. Don't get me wrong, Christmas is a really fun holiday, but man is it a lot of work. Also, I won't have to play "My Little Pony" every afternoon with my boyfriend's niece. ;) I'll put up a post for Rat when I'm back.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

You get to learn all the weird little ins and outs when you sell that shit. Cingular is supposed to be really good but they just started moving into this area recently, so I don't know much about them.
Don't buy a phone through RadioShack. The repair center is crap. And they all go to the same repair center in Ft. Worth, Texas. Trust me on this. I've got horror stories.
I'm interested to play Rat learning about what's going on, especially after kind of seeing Sarah deal with it. I think he'll take it well because he's very laid-back and doesn't have much to lose.

I know the kid'll miss you. He's angsting over the phone line having issues. We are non-denominational something... I dunno. I could say we're non-denominational maybe Christian, Methodist, Neo-pagan maybe, and who the hell knows, respectively, but that gets confusing.

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

The last thing I bought at Radio Shack was a walkman when I was nineteen. :) I go straight to the source for most electronics, when I can. And hee, I was born near Fort Worth! I saw Sesame Street Live there.

My parents have cingular and they seem to like it fine. I was just frustrated with AT&T that I didn't want to have anything to do with them. Although I had a really nice backgammon game on my phone.

It was a lot of fun to have Sarah try to figure things out. I think it helped soothe her ego a little that she was the first person to find out, since the Strangers left (even before Anna!). I think anyone who has a hard life in the City might benefit a little from knowing that they didn't get this way on their own, and they have the chance to change.

Aww, I will miss Morri too, but I'll be around. Just not a lot. My parents have dial-up, so I can't spend a lot of time online (although I can check email a couple times a day). Really, there's nothing better than being 30 years old and having your father say, "Get off the computer, it's time for dinner." It's what I live for. :P

Sounds like a non-demoninational mix. :) My parents and I will have our usual Jewish Christmas -- a movie and chinese food.

[justdbear.livejournal.com]

:( Sorry things are not so hot right now. Lack of sleep makes everything worse.

I like it that you are posting your artwork! It's about time. ;)

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

I got lots of sleep last night, finally... due to my allergies and the subsequent drugs knocking me out. I made the mistake of cleaning the mountain of shoes behind the front door and whatever dust/molds/etc were back there gave me the worst allergy attack of the decade or something. But hey, sleep is good.

It's mostly old art. I do need to update more often. I'm gonna try to do some gift art for Christmas so there might be a batch update of that after the holidays.
I need to get off my ass and comment to your stuff more often.

[justdbear.livejournal.com]

Ew, I have been fighting allergies and a cold too. I cannot sleep without taking something and then it's hard to wake up in the morning. But it's winter and the heater and dry air are a go so what can I do? :D

As for commenting on my stuff, don't worry about it! Most of my stuff is just be being bored and put there so I won't lose it in my many reformats of my hard drive. :D I am glad you are putting stuff up though. You and Bridgie always have such great stuff, and your coloring is off the charts! ^_^

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

I can't do sleeping pills unless I don't expect to get a damn thing done the next day. I'm better off just getting what sleep I can and living on coffee the next day. I'm a lot better today but the headache and congestion is still clinging on.
I'm glad G-Bridgie is finally putting stuff up. I know Morri's been bugging her about it for a while. She puts out more art than I do, I think. I hate coloring. Have I mentioned I hate coloring? I'm not saying I'm bad at it, I just angst over the color choice way too much and it drives me nuts.

[madcowchef.livejournal.com]

I've never done any online stuff for RPing. I've always been a bit curious about it but it seemed to lack the social draw of face to face gaming. If you are looking for some very unskilled new recruits, and don't mind explaining to me what the hell I should be doing, I've always enjoyed games with you and would be willing to give it a whirl.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

It really depends on who you're playing with. There's stuff like WOW that's all hack and slash-y, and then there's stuff like IRC and LJ RP which is mostly just character interaction. Most of the LJ RP I've seen is more just characters talking than plot/action driven. There are places where the two mesh nicely.
The place we started tp play is in a community called dear_multiverse. The concept is an advice forum where you can bring in any character from anywhere anywhen with just a few rules to keep things PG-13
There are a lot of fan characters, multiples or 'alternates' in some cases. There's about a half dozen batmans and various Marvel comics characters. Certain TV shows are popular, I know there's some Buffy characters around. You also see book characters, and there are original characters around. There are so many Harry Potter characters it's scary. Popular movie releases sometimes bring a flood of characters based on them. I expect to see a couple Eragon characters to pop up when that movie comes out.
Basically it's a good spot to meet people. There's lots of players that are mediocre, some that suck, and some that are just amazing. I only have cool players friended. ;)
The more meaningful RP tends to happen in side communities and on personal journals after people have made alliances.
This reply is getting way too long. I should probably just email or FREAKING CALL you guys.

[madcowchef.livejournal.com]

Calling people is hard, lets go to the mall ya know.