Venting and arts

[reymonkey]

Ooookay. So I did some updating on DA, mostly of older stuff but I'm posting because I want people to see this and give feedback please? I'm out of practice with realistic stuff.
I did a lot of updating with older stuff from Arrka'ar because it appealed to me, and then Bridgie found this piece of fanart on there by somebody we don't know of her major Arraka'aran character... maybe it's a sign.

I'm feeling frustrated with online RP. Partly I'm just paranoid and hypersensitive about certain things. Maybe I'm mispercieving things. I feel like I can't seem to fit in anywhere and it gets amplified when I see the people I live with being popular and fitting in everywhere. I was hesitant and wary but finally joined an RP community everyone else in the house was a part of. Then Bridgie lost interest in it, Morri finished out his plot and stopped playing, and then two of the coolest players there announced their departure for good. I know none of this has anything to do with me but it still feels like I've walked into a room just as everybody else walks out. Or everybody I feel comfortable and interested in talking to at least. I'm not dropping out or anything, I'm just venting here because I'm oversensistive. I also stupidly started the Dirkitty thing just when Ramon and Hips' players got busy, so I've been in limbo there at the same time.
Maybe LJ RP just isn't where I belong or something. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not thinking straight because I've been having some bad insomnia lately.
Or maybe I need to go back to focusing on my own projects like Arraka'ar and say screw it to online RP. There's not much point in it when I can't find anybody that will actually play with me.

But in other news, Verizon is screwing us over. Obviously I'm on right now, but it's taken me three days to update DA because of a crappy connection. People kept messing around with the phone box out back last week and now our dial tone keeps going in and out and when we do have one the line is staticcy. This means the phone is almost unusable. This also means our connection is slow, takes forever to connect, and then disconnects at random. The weather is fine, we don't owe them money, WTF. We're paying them money for sporadic service. I'm pissed. The insomnia is not helping. I've had the worst insomnia I've had in years this week, getting only a couple hours each night. Bleargh.

I'm gonna end this now because I hate to look back and see myself whinging.

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[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

Hello!

I'm really sorry about your phone connection, and your RP troubles. For what it's worth, I think you're a great RPer, and I'd RP with you any time. :) Especially Rat! I'm always a little shy when it comes to putting up Dark City posts, so just nudge me when you want me to and I will.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Grrrrrrr Verizon sucks. They're also kind of a monopoly around here. I think Cavtel is our only other option.

Thanks! Buuuut... you haven't played with me much. I admit I mostly stick to lighter stuff and comic relief on LJ RP. I'd love to have Ratty meet Sarah. There was some kind of idea going around about him turning up sick at the clinic where she's working? At this rate I might not get the chance to play that until after X-mas though. Poor Ratty, spending Christmas alone on the streets...

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

My cellular is Verizon, and I can't complain too much about them, but they aren't a monopoly here. Companies get lazy when they can -- our cable modem is Comcast, and they are seriously evil.

I may not have played with you much, but I have read the posts you're in, and I am impressed. :)

I figured the easiest way for Sarah to meet Rat is if he came by the clinic, since I can't imagine them running into one another otherwise. Unless John mentions him to her and Schreber, then she might actively look for him. He doesn't have to be ill, or anything... the clinic does preventative stuff, too, like flu shots.

Would you like me to put up a post after the holidays? I'm going to not be around much myself -- going home from 21st to the 30th.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

Oh, Cellular Verizon is great, and also a completely different department. I used to work for RadioShack for about two and a half years and we sold them. The credit checks are hellish, which is why I can't get one, but that means their service caters to people who expect they damn well better get what they pay for. I have Sprint for my cell. Easy credit checks, more expensive phones up front, because they have a higher rate of customers who end up not paying their bills.
Thanks. Rat's a more serious character than Dirk, definitely. You can see my old stuff on my dead OC journals...heh.
I think she was going to have John tell them about Rat just because whoa-guy who knows something's up. If I have Rat be sick then he can get a pity party! ;)
Sure, that works for me. I'm not into the commercialistic drive of the Christmas rush anymore than I have to be, but my workplace is closing to move next week so I'm busy a lot...
Speaking of which, I should get back to work.

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

I had no idea that there was that difference between verizon and sprint. I switched to Verizon after a year with AT&T (before they merged with cingular). They were awful. I couldn't get any reception in my house, and when my phone broke, they sent me a refurbished phone (which had a broken 4 button). Good times!

Sarah will try to help out Rat if he is sick, doubly so if she knows already that he has been noticing changes in the city.

This Christmas I'll be with my parents instead of my boyfriend's family, which means no Christmas anything (we're Jewish) and I'm really looking forward to it. Don't get me wrong, Christmas is a really fun holiday, but man is it a lot of work. Also, I won't have to play "My Little Pony" every afternoon with my boyfriend's niece. ;) I'll put up a post for Rat when I'm back.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

You get to learn all the weird little ins and outs when you sell that shit. Cingular is supposed to be really good but they just started moving into this area recently, so I don't know much about them.
Don't buy a phone through RadioShack. The repair center is crap. And they all go to the same repair center in Ft. Worth, Texas. Trust me on this. I've got horror stories.
I'm interested to play Rat learning about what's going on, especially after kind of seeing Sarah deal with it. I think he'll take it well because he's very laid-back and doesn't have much to lose.

I know the kid'll miss you. He's angsting over the phone line having issues. We are non-denominational something... I dunno. I could say we're non-denominational maybe Christian, Methodist, Neo-pagan maybe, and who the hell knows, respectively, but that gets confusing.

[sarah-branigan.livejournal.com]

The last thing I bought at Radio Shack was a walkman when I was nineteen. :) I go straight to the source for most electronics, when I can. And hee, I was born near Fort Worth! I saw Sesame Street Live there.

My parents have cingular and they seem to like it fine. I was just frustrated with AT&T that I didn't want to have anything to do with them. Although I had a really nice backgammon game on my phone.

It was a lot of fun to have Sarah try to figure things out. I think it helped soothe her ego a little that she was the first person to find out, since the Strangers left (even before Anna!). I think anyone who has a hard life in the City might benefit a little from knowing that they didn't get this way on their own, and they have the chance to change.

Aww, I will miss Morri too, but I'll be around. Just not a lot. My parents have dial-up, so I can't spend a lot of time online (although I can check email a couple times a day). Really, there's nothing better than being 30 years old and having your father say, "Get off the computer, it's time for dinner." It's what I live for. :P

Sounds like a non-demoninational mix. :) My parents and I will have our usual Jewish Christmas -- a movie and chinese food.