Venting and arts

[reymonkey]

Ooookay. So I did some updating on DA, mostly of older stuff but I'm posting because I want people to see this and give feedback please? I'm out of practice with realistic stuff.
I did a lot of updating with older stuff from Arrka'ar because it appealed to me, and then Bridgie found this piece of fanart on there by somebody we don't know of her major Arraka'aran character... maybe it's a sign.

I'm feeling frustrated with online RP. Partly I'm just paranoid and hypersensitive about certain things. Maybe I'm mispercieving things. I feel like I can't seem to fit in anywhere and it gets amplified when I see the people I live with being popular and fitting in everywhere. I was hesitant and wary but finally joined an RP community everyone else in the house was a part of. Then Bridgie lost interest in it, Morri finished out his plot and stopped playing, and then two of the coolest players there announced their departure for good. I know none of this has anything to do with me but it still feels like I've walked into a room just as everybody else walks out. Or everybody I feel comfortable and interested in talking to at least. I'm not dropping out or anything, I'm just venting here because I'm oversensistive. I also stupidly started the Dirkitty thing just when Ramon and Hips' players got busy, so I've been in limbo there at the same time.
Maybe LJ RP just isn't where I belong or something. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not thinking straight because I've been having some bad insomnia lately.
Or maybe I need to go back to focusing on my own projects like Arraka'ar and say screw it to online RP. There's not much point in it when I can't find anybody that will actually play with me.

But in other news, Verizon is screwing us over. Obviously I'm on right now, but it's taken me three days to update DA because of a crappy connection. People kept messing around with the phone box out back last week and now our dial tone keeps going in and out and when we do have one the line is staticcy. This means the phone is almost unusable. This also means our connection is slow, takes forever to connect, and then disconnects at random. The weather is fine, we don't owe them money, WTF. We're paying them money for sporadic service. I'm pissed. The insomnia is not helping. I've had the worst insomnia I've had in years this week, getting only a couple hours each night. Bleargh.

I'm gonna end this now because I hate to look back and see myself whinging.

Comments

[madcowchef.livejournal.com]

I've never done any online stuff for RPing. I've always been a bit curious about it but it seemed to lack the social draw of face to face gaming. If you are looking for some very unskilled new recruits, and don't mind explaining to me what the hell I should be doing, I've always enjoyed games with you and would be willing to give it a whirl.

[reymonkey.livejournal.com]

It really depends on who you're playing with. There's stuff like WOW that's all hack and slash-y, and then there's stuff like IRC and LJ RP which is mostly just character interaction. Most of the LJ RP I've seen is more just characters talking than plot/action driven. There are places where the two mesh nicely.
The place we started tp play is in a community called dear_multiverse. The concept is an advice forum where you can bring in any character from anywhere anywhen with just a few rules to keep things PG-13
There are a lot of fan characters, multiples or 'alternates' in some cases. There's about a half dozen batmans and various Marvel comics characters. Certain TV shows are popular, I know there's some Buffy characters around. You also see book characters, and there are original characters around. There are so many Harry Potter characters it's scary. Popular movie releases sometimes bring a flood of characters based on them. I expect to see a couple Eragon characters to pop up when that movie comes out.
Basically it's a good spot to meet people. There's lots of players that are mediocre, some that suck, and some that are just amazing. I only have cool players friended. ;)
The more meaningful RP tends to happen in side communities and on personal journals after people have made alliances.
This reply is getting way too long. I should probably just email or FREAKING CALL you guys.

[madcowchef.livejournal.com]

Calling people is hard, lets go to the mall ya know.