Venting and arts
Dec. 13th, 2006 12:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
reymonkeyOoookay. So I did some updating on DA, mostly of older stuff but I'm posting because I want people to see this and give feedback please? I'm out of practice with realistic stuff.
I did a lot of updating with older stuff from Arrka'ar because it appealed to me, and then Bridgie found this piece of fanart on there by somebody we don't know of her major Arraka'aran character... maybe it's a sign.
I'm feeling frustrated with online RP. Partly I'm just paranoid and hypersensitive about certain things. Maybe I'm mispercieving things. I feel like I can't seem to fit in anywhere and it gets amplified when I see the people I live with being popular and fitting in everywhere. I was hesitant and wary but finally joined an RP community everyone else in the house was a part of. Then Bridgie lost interest in it, Morri finished out his plot and stopped playing, and then two of the coolest players there announced their departure for good. I know none of this has anything to do with me but it still feels like I've walked into a room just as everybody else walks out. Or everybody I feel comfortable and interested in talking to at least. I'm not dropping out or anything, I'm just venting here because I'm oversensistive. I also stupidly started the Dirkitty thing just when Ramon and Hips' players got busy, so I've been in limbo there at the same time.
Maybe LJ RP just isn't where I belong or something. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not thinking straight because I've been having some bad insomnia lately.
Or maybe I need to go back to focusing on my own projects like Arraka'ar and say screw it to online RP. There's not much point in it when I can't find anybody that will actually play with me.
But in other news, Verizon is screwing us over. Obviously I'm on right now, but it's taken me three days to update DA because of a crappy connection. People kept messing around with the phone box out back last week and now our dial tone keeps going in and out and when we do have one the line is staticcy. This means the phone is almost unusable. This also means our connection is slow, takes forever to connect, and then disconnects at random. The weather is fine, we don't owe them money, WTF. We're paying them money for sporadic service. I'm pissed. The insomnia is not helping. I've had the worst insomnia I've had in years this week, getting only a couple hours each night. Bleargh.
I'm gonna end this now because I hate to look back and see myself whinging.
I did a lot of updating with older stuff from Arrka'ar because it appealed to me, and then Bridgie found this piece of fanart on there by somebody we don't know of her major Arraka'aran character... maybe it's a sign.
I'm feeling frustrated with online RP. Partly I'm just paranoid and hypersensitive about certain things. Maybe I'm mispercieving things. I feel like I can't seem to fit in anywhere and it gets amplified when I see the people I live with being popular and fitting in everywhere. I was hesitant and wary but finally joined an RP community everyone else in the house was a part of. Then Bridgie lost interest in it, Morri finished out his plot and stopped playing, and then two of the coolest players there announced their departure for good. I know none of this has anything to do with me but it still feels like I've walked into a room just as everybody else walks out. Or everybody I feel comfortable and interested in talking to at least. I'm not dropping out or anything, I'm just venting here because I'm oversensistive. I also stupidly started the Dirkitty thing just when Ramon and Hips' players got busy, so I've been in limbo there at the same time.
Maybe LJ RP just isn't where I belong or something. I don't know. Maybe I'm just not thinking straight because I've been having some bad insomnia lately.
Or maybe I need to go back to focusing on my own projects like Arraka'ar and say screw it to online RP. There's not much point in it when I can't find anybody that will actually play with me.
But in other news, Verizon is screwing us over. Obviously I'm on right now, but it's taken me three days to update DA because of a crappy connection. People kept messing around with the phone box out back last week and now our dial tone keeps going in and out and when we do have one the line is staticcy. This means the phone is almost unusable. This also means our connection is slow, takes forever to connect, and then disconnects at random. The weather is fine, we don't owe them money, WTF. We're paying them money for sporadic service. I'm pissed. The insomnia is not helping. I've had the worst insomnia I've had in years this week, getting only a couple hours each night. Bleargh.
I'm gonna end this now because I hate to look back and see myself whinging.
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Date: Dec. 14th, 2006 09:23 pm (UTC)It's mostly old art. I do need to update more often. I'm gonna try to do some gift art for Christmas so there might be a batch update of that after the holidays.
I need to get off my ass and comment to your stuff more often.
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Date: Dec. 14th, 2006 09:29 pm (UTC)As for commenting on my stuff, don't worry about it! Most of my stuff is just be being bored and put there so I won't lose it in my many reformats of my hard drive. :D I am glad you are putting stuff up though. You and Bridgie always have such great stuff, and your coloring is off the charts! ^_^
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Date: Dec. 14th, 2006 10:05 pm (UTC)I'm glad G-Bridgie is finally putting stuff up. I know Morri's been bugging her about it for a while. She puts out more art than I do, I think. I hate coloring. Have I mentioned I hate coloring? I'm not saying I'm bad at it, I just angst over the color choice way too much and it drives me nuts.