Where's my brain?
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reymonkeySooo... LJ spaz this morning. That was fun.
I don't know why I'm updating so little lately, just distracted, and right now I'm working on some art like a crazy thing, or I will be once we're done getting the tree down. Most of the morning was spent disassembling Christmas, and I ended up having to split my Nutcracker collection into two boxes, one for just the nutcracker ornaments and a couple snowglobes, the other for the larger nutcrackers. I didn't even get a big nutcracker this year, so I'm not sure how my collection managed to explode like this. Not that I'm complaining.
Anyway, mixed feelings today and some anxiety. On the one hand I feel kind of optomistic and like singing and OMG tomorrow is the inaugeration and just maybe, just maybe some amazing good will come out of this. I spend a lot of time being ashamed of being an American, and that says something horrible about this country's foreign policies, or the generation I've grown up in, or me, or all of the above. I'd love for that to change, I really would. This country does have a hell of a lot going for it, but there's also a lot that needs to be fixed.
Because, you see, on the other hand my unemployment has run out. I can't seem to get so much as a job interview. Every day I hear about the unemployment numbers going up. I want to wrok damnit. I have a good employment record. This last job was the only one in my life I have ever been let go from, and all the others I left for good reasons, with two weeks notice, and they were sad to see me go. I'm feeling a little lost here, and the daily reports of how hard it is to get a job are emotionally crushing. All I seem to get back are form letters that they've recieved my application, and that's it. How long can we go on with me not bringing in money? We owe on utilities right now. We're not major frivolous spenders. I see articles and stuff on how to save money and they're useless because they're obviously aimed at people who are in a higher tax bracket or something. Get rid of or cut down on your cable or satellite TV! We don't have either of those, just an antennae we're about to lose signal on because we still don't have a converter box. Limit your credit cards! We don't have any. End your gym memberships! Did that years ago. Seriously. We have rent, food, utilities, internet, and that's really about it. We're comfortable, but that's because we're people who can live comfortably without a lot of expensive stuff. What worries me is the one frivolity there we could cut would be the 'net, but come on, we're on $10 a month dial-up. My web page hosting is paid for the year... I don't know. I just worry. I still have cavities and I'm afraid to make an appointment I can't pay for.
So enough of that. I'm feeling scatterbrained today, and I need to eat lunch and my god it's two in the afternoon. Crapmonkies.
Have some art! I managed to draw L'il D.S. and this is an amazing accomplishment, because it's the first time I've drawn a child that looked like a child. Plus the shading turned out pretty awesome. I worked at these, had to redraw proportions over and over to get it right.
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placeboweek Did you get my eml with the rough craptastic sketch? I mean if you're still looking it over that's cool, I just want to know you got it.
I am totally going to go eat food to absorb some of the coffee, and maybe then I'll be able to think straight.
I don't know why I'm updating so little lately, just distracted, and right now I'm working on some art like a crazy thing, or I will be once we're done getting the tree down. Most of the morning was spent disassembling Christmas, and I ended up having to split my Nutcracker collection into two boxes, one for just the nutcracker ornaments and a couple snowglobes, the other for the larger nutcrackers. I didn't even get a big nutcracker this year, so I'm not sure how my collection managed to explode like this. Not that I'm complaining.
Anyway, mixed feelings today and some anxiety. On the one hand I feel kind of optomistic and like singing and OMG tomorrow is the inaugeration and just maybe, just maybe some amazing good will come out of this. I spend a lot of time being ashamed of being an American, and that says something horrible about this country's foreign policies, or the generation I've grown up in, or me, or all of the above. I'd love for that to change, I really would. This country does have a hell of a lot going for it, but there's also a lot that needs to be fixed.
Because, you see, on the other hand my unemployment has run out. I can't seem to get so much as a job interview. Every day I hear about the unemployment numbers going up. I want to wrok damnit. I have a good employment record. This last job was the only one in my life I have ever been let go from, and all the others I left for good reasons, with two weeks notice, and they were sad to see me go. I'm feeling a little lost here, and the daily reports of how hard it is to get a job are emotionally crushing. All I seem to get back are form letters that they've recieved my application, and that's it. How long can we go on with me not bringing in money? We owe on utilities right now. We're not major frivolous spenders. I see articles and stuff on how to save money and they're useless because they're obviously aimed at people who are in a higher tax bracket or something. Get rid of or cut down on your cable or satellite TV! We don't have either of those, just an antennae we're about to lose signal on because we still don't have a converter box. Limit your credit cards! We don't have any. End your gym memberships! Did that years ago. Seriously. We have rent, food, utilities, internet, and that's really about it. We're comfortable, but that's because we're people who can live comfortably without a lot of expensive stuff. What worries me is the one frivolity there we could cut would be the 'net, but come on, we're on $10 a month dial-up. My web page hosting is paid for the year... I don't know. I just worry. I still have cavities and I'm afraid to make an appointment I can't pay for.
So enough of that. I'm feeling scatterbrained today, and I need to eat lunch and my god it's two in the afternoon. Crapmonkies.
Have some art! I managed to draw L'il D.S. and this is an amazing accomplishment, because it's the first time I've drawn a child that looked like a child. Plus the shading turned out pretty awesome. I worked at these, had to redraw proportions over and over to get it right.
placeboweek Did you get my eml with the rough craptastic sketch? I mean if you're still looking it over that's cool, I just want to know you got it.I am totally going to go eat food to absorb some of the coffee, and maybe then I'll be able to think straight.
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Date: Jan. 22nd, 2009 02:46 pm (UTC)Michael's seems to always be hiring, but they just won't pay any attention to me. I've always been under the impression that jobs at bookstores and craft stores kind of require knowing the people who work there already. I might just be paranoid and self-defeating or something though.
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Date: Jan. 23rd, 2009 07:04 pm (UTC)Oh, hey I have a blog now: myfeeddogsaredown.blogspot.com
Cheryl
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Date: Jan. 27th, 2009 03:26 pm (UTC)Shiny blog! I'll have to bookmark it so I can see what projects you're working on. I keep thinking I should probably have a blog just for creative stuff like art...